Giving the 100 Day Challenge the Boot.

Ok, my intention to learn the trapeze in 100 days has driven me a bit berserk! I do love to keep my promises to myself whenever possible, so when I noticed I wasn’t actually doing the work every day I was first understanding and tolerant, then a bit slave-driving, then questioning (does that sound like your mum?).  Nothing actually got me going!

What I got with the questioning was two things. One, that the trapeze nowadays is not the trapeze I was imagining in my mind. When I was a child and saw the beautiful, sparkling lady climb up the ladder and get on the trapeze I was totally awestruck. I wanted to be like her so much I could taste it! She always had her partners and brothers to swing her back and forth and flip her in the air and catch her. It just looked like Heaven! She was never a disappointment like the ride on the elephant.

It’s different now. The circus place where I do aerial yoga every week is from the new school, the Cirque du Soleil version of circus. I admire it enormously but I don’t want to go there. For one thing, the trapeze hangs from one point so it circles around  and around and doesn’t just fly straight like a swing. For another, there are no nets so the routines on the trapeze now tend to be a little hanging gymnastics and then a pose for applause, another little gymnastic contortion and then a pose.

So I was pretending to myself that I was in this for the body strengthening but really I was in it for the thrills. I wanted to be on a giant swing. And, I noticed that I’m still a bit shy about posing (‘especially at your age!’ my mum just said). Mum’s actually dead but that doesn’t stop her from talking in my head 🙂 . That’s number one.

Number two is that I have been working on revising the book a lot and also on becoming clear on what I wanted to spend my next twenty years doing. With that and the solar flares I was feeling uncharacteristically physically tired. My mind and emotions were doing really well but my body was dragging a bit. I also asked for and got greater communication with my guides, and it is wonderful, but I think so much of my being is moving into another dimension that it added to my tiredness. My body has to catch up.UCSB Labyrinth

So over Solstice I did an amazing ritual at the UCSB Labyrinth. It is pretty  new and was totally empty. It overlooks the ocean, I could hear the waves, and I was in Heaven. The message that I got was that the gift that I came to share with people, women especially, is how to get present in their bodies as a regular way of being. Then proper nutrition and self-love and breathing and reclaiming their own power to create their lives, all fall into place for each one in her own way.

I can’t tell anyone else how to eat. I finally have become clear on what suits my body at this time of my life and I’m grateful for that. But it certainly wouldn’t suit many people. I was hung up on that for a while watching people feed their addictions and getting sicker and sicker. I really want everyone to be well and happy and doing great work in the world. But after hearing the words a zillion times that everyone is on their own path, I finally got a hit right to the heart during this ritual that everyone is doing what is right for them right now. My only job is to be the best that I can be at my own life, and if I look a lot more lively and healthy than other people my age then maybe they will sit up and take notice.

So I’m not sitting on my fingers, I’m still exercising daily, but I’ve kicked the trapeze idea to the curb. And I’m not going to do challenges any more either. I will accept my life day to day as I am creating it with extreme gratitude. Often while on the beach walking with Dragon I wonder how I got so lucky.

Love and blessings,

The Absolute Joy of Moving

I am almost finished revising my book, “Come Home to Your Body.” Whoohoo! It was a lot of work! Now I have to learn all about self-publishing. It was published by Llewellyn before but self-publishing is the fastest way to go now.

I was thinking about the new ability to create videos to go along with books. I love it! Technology is the Third dimensional version of magic.

So I was planning what videos I would make and I did a practice one for a group I belong to, and watching it made me realize how far I’ve come in accepting my own ways of moving. I am who I am, and when you move in front of a camera you show who you are in every frame. At first it was intimidating but, when I moved into more self-acceptance and self-love, I stepped into the purpose of the video, which is to encourage others to be in their bodies more.

While pondering all this two youtube videos came to mind.  PLEASE click the play buttons because you will probably love both of them and the second one will make you laugh out loud.

The first one is how I would have liked my body to move when I first watched it. It is exquisite. Up until now I would have said that if I could move like that I would be happy. Now I can look at it and admire it wholeheartedly but not want to go there. It took years of control and years of seeing from the outside to get there.

The singer and songwriter is Lee Harris and the dancer is Guido Verwer. Click the play on youtube button to learn more.

The second is a video of an amazingly alive child who beams megawatt joy in her movement. That’s who I want to be like now. She totally healed me of allowing my inner critic to control my own expression of joy. After watching her I felt free to be completely dorky and whacky. She gave me permission to be more of me. And check out the sweet little angel next to her who is doing everything right. Which do you feel called to be?

So check out the level of joy you take in your movements this week. Up the ante a bit, move up the scale. You can find a NIA dance class or dance by yourself in the living room and feel as good as this little sunbeam is feeling.

What a blessing,


Inspiration and Opportunity!

I’m on the countdown to a big birthday at the end of the month, my 70th. I never dreamed I would get that old! That is going to be my biggest number, I’m counting downward from here on. But I’m getting ready for a big year. In fact it’s my year to get bigger in every way!

I’ve been doing a lot of work on releasing everything that doesn’t serve me. I do NOT want to carry that stuff forward! And I’ve been finding inspiration all over the place. Here is a link to a great video from Marie Forleo interviewing Adam Braun. He wrote “The Promise of a Pencil” about his mission to build schools all over the world and how one person can make a HUGE difference and get good things rolling.

At the end of the video he and Marie give a challenge, to take one step towards your own path of helping others. So yesterday I told my existing weightvest newsletter list about this new site. I’ve been hanging back waiting to be ready 😉 and now I’m stepping up to the plate. I was trying to please everyone as usual. You all know how that holds you back and keeps you stuck, don’t you??

Then another thing that has kicked me into high gear is reading “The Charge” by Brendon Burchard. He is convinced that we are all here to share our special expertise with others in this grand new world that’s being created right now that we all got a special invitation to be part of. Exciting times!!

I’m just beginning the book but he talks about people who feel caged in their lives, that’s not me, feel comfortable, that would be me, or feel charged, that would be me after I’ve finished the book. Comfortable is very seductive, you feel something is wrong, kind of blah, but you aren’t sure what it is. Well, he hit the nail on the head for me, a lack of challenge. So I’m taking some risks, sticking my head out of my comfort zone, and exploring some big new challenges.

Often in my life I have felt weird and ashamed about my need to be off on a new trail all the time. My family has rarely appreciated that 😉 But I have realized now that it is one of my talents. I don’t throw everything out of the canoe and start fresh each time, I add the important bits of new learning to the varied life that I find exciting so I’m glad to get up in the morning.

So I’m planning a 100 day challenge, starting on my birthday, the 31st. My granddaughter and I are having an aerial circus lesson. She is pretty good already, she went to camp last Summer, but I have been doing aerial yoga to get stronger and waiting for a kick in the butt to really begin. I don’t want to perform, I just want to be strong and feel invincible again. So I think it will be more than just that, I think I will challenge myself in every arena; physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. I’ll see what ideas Spirit comes up with by then.

I will post a short video every ten days of the 100 to show you how I’m doing. I kind of hesitated to write that because I’ve started to follow so many people on the web with that kind of announcement and they have just drifted out of sight after a week or two. 100 days is over 3 months!!
I can and will do this, beautiful women!
Yep, and now I have to 🙂

If anyone wants to join me in their own 100 day challenge let me know in the comments section below and we can all root for you.

I just made a free morning meditation mp3 for you all and put it on the site here. I do it myself every morning with daily variations but this will be a basic version for connecting as a channel between Heaven and Earth.

So I will send this post out as the first newsletter but it will always be on the blog as well and I’ll put up an RSS feed button as soon as I figure out how.

Go watch that video, it will inspire your day, and tomorrow morning you can start your day with the meditation mp3.

Big hugs,


I am looking forward to blogging on this site. Health is such a huge topic, I can talk about anything! I am still writing all the static pages but the blog will be a more spontaneous thing that I can use to update the information with all the new ideas I come across.

I’ve had a blog on the Weight Vest site for years but I have to limit myself to bone related topics there. Yet everything is related to everything. Today I was not only learning how to configure the website on WordPress but have it look the way I wanted it and I was getting pretty stuck in my head and obsessive and edgy. When I was walking with Dragon, my new dog, down near the beach I just let it all go and instantly felt better.

There is a eucalyptus tree on my walk that I love and standing next to that tree with my head against the beautiful peeling bark I can bring myself back into a space of acceptance of what is, and gratitude. Sometimes I used to climb up in the tree and sit above the people walking by and they rarely noticed me. I can’t do that anymore because Dragon thinks the world revolves around her and she doesn’t want to wait for me to talk to trees.treepam

Thinking back over my day there was such a contrast between the mental intensity of learning a new computer skill, getting things wrong a zillion times and starting over, being totally in my head, and walking with Dragon and being present with trees and the ocean. I love them both. I couldn’t do a Walden Pond thing, alone in a cabin in the woods. My computer is my friend and ally and I learn so much from it. I could easily live without a cell phone but not without my computer.

I have read a lot of lovely blogs by amazing women lately and one of them said that when she started she had only one reader – her dad 😉 So I will start out with a few friends and see where this leads me.

Move in Joy,