My Journey into 2018

Amazing things have been happening in my life since I started using the belief change regularly – from the last post!

My Inner Guidance led me to TreeSisters recently. They want to reforest the sub-tropics and they know that to do that they have to improve the education and status of women around the world. So it is a dual goal organization, to save our planet from the sixth mass extinction and to raise the consciousness of women. To turn us from a consumer species – which obviously is not working – into a restorer species, like all the indigenous peoples around the world who consider the effects of all their choices on the generations to come.

So I just completed the free Journey of Awakening from their website and it was the most astounding online course I ever took. In the meditations I felt the presence of hundreds of women all around the globe, all working to improve their world for the future. A huge part of their work is helping us all feel our connections to each other and to nature.

There are brilliant interviews with very unusual women to illustrate each step on the journey so I have become connected with many more women who are leading the world into hope and positive change.

So, back in October when I formulated my belief change method I was pretty gloomy about the state of the world and I felt that it was all beyond my control. The planet is being run by corporate psychopaths who have Money in the center of their reality instead of Life. They are too stupid and shortsighted to see that the money will do them no good when the planet is destroyed. I know that most of them have grand refuges under the earth in fancy bunkers to wait out the trouble, but, really! Do they actually believe that they can be happy down there, disconnected from Source and Sun!

After doing the Journey to Awakening I totally believe that a new world is being born. The corporatocracy will be rounded up and escorted to another place and we will have to work like beavers in the new world restoring the planet and Earth’s creatures, including us, the new humans.

So I highly recommend that you join TreeSisters and start giving back to this beautiful planet before the man-created weather patterns destroy us all. Having just lived through the California fires and mudslides, up close and personal, in fact still breathing in and cleaning up the soot, I am more than ready to do my part.

Please join me!



Belief and Reality Change

I firmly believe that we each create our own world according to our beliefs.
That’s why we each have our own version of every event.

But we all have powerful beliefs and programs running us that were installed before we were born; in utero, or from birth to 7 years old, which are NOT useful to us now in our changed world. ‘I can’t’ is a very powerful one and it is different for everyone. What can’t you do that others can do easily?

We often notice these beliefs when we do something automatically and think ‘why did I do that?’

Or we can notice when others do things we don’t think are ok. They are violating one of our core programs. These core programs are in the unconscious mind, which runs 95% of our brain.

Our Conscious brain/mind is only running 5% of our lives because it can only process a limited number of bits of information a second. Try remembering a 20 unit number without using a memory tool.

Our Unconscious is running zillions (the number keeps changing with new research, but it’s a lot) of bits of information a second. It’s our hard-drive! It regulates our pH, our oxygen, all our hormonal system and all our other systems, our reactions to events, our emotions, etc. etc. Some say our whole reality.

Our Superconscious is our connection to Source; our intuition, our higher self – the part of us that has the whole picture of all of our lifetimes at once. This is the part I like best and want to hang out with it more, but being in the world with all it’s distractions, I get triggered out of connection with it.

So, I have known for 50 years that we are all run by the unconscious programs our parents, peers and others installed without realizing it. I have been searching for a way to access these programs and change them all my life. I’ve tried everything!

And nothing really worked or was easy. I’m too impatient to sit and meditate all day and not really attracted to people who do.

Here is the Solution

Imagine that your unconscious is like a computer. You can install any program you want on the computer and try it out. Your computer doesn’t say, ‘No, I don’t like photoshop, it’s too hard.’ It just installs it and lets you decide.

Humans are actually much more than computers because we have hearts and souls, but this is an analogy.

Now if you install a program that is opposite to one you already have, e.g. ‘I am worthy of all good.’ and you already have an old program, ‘I am worthless.’ Then, like the computer, it doesn’t judge either program. It just uses the ones that your daily thoughts and feelings bring up. So every time you have a thought of being worthless, then you could notice it and say, ‘that’s not true, I am worthy of all good.’ You could even reinstall the program to reinforce that.

Gradually when it needs more room on the hard-drive it will trash the old, unused program and it can no longer be triggered by fear events in your life.

Choosing a New Program.

You can choose a program from something that pops up in your life. Like being impatient and not enjoying that state. You would create the new program – short and sweet; our unconscious thinks like a child, no negative wording, and present tense.

So ‘I am patient.’ Or at the most two things, ‘I am patient and kind.’

Or you can create a whole long list for every area of your life with really positive beliefs. I stopped at about 6 full pages and I’m not done installing them all.

A good first belief to install would be would be, ‘All my new beliefs benefit me and the world.’

Then I advise you to do, ‘I love myself completely.’ Because that changes everything!

And it wouldn’t hurt to do, ‘I can install new beliefs easily and quickly.’

I was totally enthusiastic at first and did 5 in a row and it did work but it’s probably better if you gave yourself more time and more chance to focus on one at a time. Now I usually do about 5 in the course of a day as they come up.

One of my success stories is that I installed ‘All the improvements to my home that I desire will be done in the next year.’ I hadn’t been consciously thinking about a remodel at all. I live in a mobile home because I want a small footprint but, since I added a dog and a cat, it has gotten a bit shabby.

But when I realized that was on my list I went ahead and started remodeling my house – by myself! I got a little help with heavy stuff like replacing rotten flooring but mostly it was my work. And my son donated the money for supplies against his inheritance when I leave him the house – perfect! The house looks so much better already. I still have all the interior doors to replace and I’m looking forward to learning how to do that. It truly feels like a new house.

So, as you can see from that story, this is magic and not-magic! We create our world from our thoughts. If my thoughts are ‘I shouldn’t take anything more for myself because so many people are starving’ then I wouldn’t have bothered remodeling. If my thoughts change to ‘I deserve to live in joy and beauty’ then it’s logical to get going with the paint and the saw.

Installing the New Program.

This is the part I only just recently figured out how to do. Affirmations were supposed to do this but usually didn’t work for me and I discovered why.

Affirmations are usually saying something that your conscious mind does not agree with. If I said I am abundant in every way, my mind was saying, ‘Bulloney, what about the bank account, take a look!’ That argument keeps you in Beta vibration and nothing new gets installed.

So you have to be in Theta, or at least low Alpha state before you can actually get to the level where programs are installed. At first you can do this by playing Theta music from youtube, or doing a deep breathing exercise, sitting out in nature feeling grateful, etc. etc.

Or if you know how to relax already you can take a shortcut by using a physical way of bringing your brain into balance. I got this position from Brain yoga. First, set the intention that what you are doing is for the benefit of all. It really is because every time one of us cleans something up in our programming we are benefiting the whole.

Sit with your legs crossed at the ankles.
Then hold your right earlobe with your left hand, thumb underneath, and your left earlobe with your right hand, so your arms are also crossed.

This brings your brain into balance, both right and left hemispheres and cuts out the arguments.

Take a deep breath in and on the outbreath, say ‘Peace’.

Now you are ready to install the new program. And remember that you don’t need to judge it. Keep an open mind. You are just giving it a free trial for 30 days on your hard-drive and you can uninstall it any time you want. You just are curious to see what life would be like with this new program.

You say it slowly and powerfully 3 times, with emotion if possible. If it doesn’t feel sincere then pretend you are an actor on your own stage. Dare to hope for it from your heart.
The voices in your head may come up at first but just listen, don’t argue with them.

What happens for me now is that sometime before I’ve finished the last declaration of intent, I sigh or take a deep breath automatically.

This may happen for you, or you may have another sign. But after the 3 declarations you are done and the program is installed.

Then you bring your fingers together in front of your heart and say SAVE. Remember what happens on the computer when you don’t save your work?

Then I put my hands on my heart and say ‘Thankyou, thankyou!’

My teacher’s 8 year old son loved math and he said ‘Dad, I want to be a master in math!’ So they installed the program, ‘I am a master in math.’ and the kid is already winning state championships! You can teach anyone this, kids love it!

Ongoing work.

The best thing to do after installing a belief is to take a step in the ‘REAL’ world that would confirm it, or you could just be on the watch for the old program to show up so you can say ‘no, no, baby, not you, I want the new belief!’

You really can’t create beliefs that would hurt others because we are all one, but if you try you will probably be the first one under the bus.

You also can’t create new beliefs for anyone else no matter how much you would like to 😉

You can do this as often as you like. Your unconscious is a work-horse, it can take anything on and find the way to create it in your life. It’s been creating all the stuff you haven’t liked all these years, right?

I’ve had a month long pause to practice this work and I’m telling you it works! The first people I taught, my grandkids, just shone it on, didn’t believe in it. But if I lived closer I could have guided them more often. A couple of others, grownups, the same thing, they shone it on. Most people are sleepwalking anyway and they don’t want anyone to disturb their waking dream. So I just gave up on sharing it.

But now I’m getting enough tweaks from my Superconscious that I thought I’d put it out there and see what happens. Worst case scenario is a few more people I never see will think I’m crazy 😉


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It’s Time for your Inner Male and Inner Feminine to Tie the Knot

My Inner Male (IM) and Inner Female (IF) often disagreed how things should be handled in my life and I’ve been doing a lot of work healing that split in the last year. I appreciated my male side when I needed to get things done but I thought it was often a problem when I interacted with others. He was too blunt!

Even my IF had a hard time with normal, everyday conversations. As an empath she could see and feel clearly and often spoke from a deeper place than people expected. So, let’s just say, small talk was not my best skill.

I first did some journaling on the qualities I was grateful for in both of them. It was amazing how much I came up with when I just wrote it down without censoring.

Then I journaled on the qualities I found not so useful and wished I could change in some way.

From this process I recognized that my Inner Male was the Warrior archetype. Many women seem to have this particular archetype since women have entered the corporate world over the last 35 years. But there are many other male archetypes; rescuer/Prince Charming, father, teacher/guru, judge/policeman/controller, handyman/fixer, friend, lover, playmate.

Your inner male archetype would depend on your life path. And it will be obvious when you look back and see what you have resisted and also longed for, your whole life. I have always known I had that warrior within. In fact my first husband used to call me Robina Hood.

So I did a meditation and went inside to meet my Inner Warrior, the Mars Archetype, which just happens to be my birth sign.

As he walked towards me at my call, in his battle armor, he was so full of light, like one of King Arthur’s knights, and he told me he would protect me until death and always had. It was so genuine it brought tears to my eyes.
I told him that I loved and appreciated him finally as he deserved, but perhaps I did not need the same kind of protection now I’m a crone. Perhaps just seeing things from his male perspective would be the most useful help now.

Then I met my Inner Feminine; so soft and beautiful and so full of desire to remove all the pain and suffering in the world.
She never would have made it on her own.
In Astrology she is Cancer, ruled by the moon, needing constant change. She often found Mars too strong and dictatorial for her, always trying to make her stick with the same safe path. She didn’t have a clue that she was the queen and he would always act on her desire. I held her close and transmitted the feeling that Mars had shown me and she felt it for herself.

Every cell in my body had an epiphany of gratitude for both of them that just swept through me. So we decided to create a sacred ceremony to help us remember who we truly are.

I went down to the beach very early in the morning on February 14 and we each promised undying love, appreciation and devotion, and to always remember that we were both vital to each other here on Planet Earth, the planet of duality. I tied a braided silk thread around my finger and wore it until it fell off.
I will do another ceremony again this and every year.

This has been a very tough year for me, my 70th birthday year brought some hard lessons. I just realized on writing this that perhaps it was because my heart was not as protected as before, not as many shields are up. My warrior allowed me to feel my own pain fully, and let me notice my lack of truly like-minded, joy-filled company to play with on Planet Earth.

The truth is we can’t deeply love anyone else until we truly love ourselves; all of the beings and faces and voices within us, the whole menagerie. This has nothing to do with whether we are single or in relationship with an external male. We pull into our lives the external males that we need to learn lessons. Once we move into partnership with our internal male then we often find ourselves moving into a whole different relationship with our external partners as well.


Great Poems

I was given the assignment to pick a poem to live by and Kim Rosen has a page on her website where she lists 50 poems that she loves. So I went there to check it out and the very first one was a poem I heard over 40 years ago that first opened the space for poetry in my heart.

David Whyte was giving his first poetry reading in the US and he read like an angel. He read each line at least twice and there were long pauses in his reading. I was totally blissed when the morning was over. I went walking on the grounds at Asilomar and my feet weren’t touching the earth. At that time his own poetry was not famous so he read some beautiful poems from Rumi, Rilke, Goethe and others then finished with some of his own.

So, part of the assignment was to record the poem you want to live by and I’ve just finished doing that. I’ll put it up here in case anyone is interested. Enjoy!

After I did this post I googled David Whyte and I have spent the day listening to him. He is still mesmerizing! And I found a poem I had been searching for a long time. I thought it was called Lost in the Forest, but that one is by Neruda and it is different. The one I was seeking is just called Lost and is by David Wagoner and David Whyte spoke it that same day at Asilomar. So I recorded that one as well. I’ve always remembered bits of it but not clearly. It is so beautiful! Enjoy again!

After re-engaging with great poetry all day I am in a totally altered space, lifted out of the 3D world and seeing the enormous undertow of creativity that is tugging on me. It’s probably no coincidence that I tore down two tin sheds this week to make room for an art studio under an awning beside my house. All my art supplies; for painting, silk-painting, sculpting, stained glass and copper working have been dormant inside the sheds for years. Now I will have a real studio again. It’s definitely time that poetry showed up at the feast 😉


I am looking forward to blogging on this site. Health is such a huge topic, I can talk about anything! I am still writing all the static pages but the blog will be a more spontaneous thing that I can use to update the information with all the new ideas I come across.

I’ve had a blog on the Weight Vest site for years but I have to limit myself to bone related topics there. Yet everything is related to everything. Today I was not only learning how to configure the website on WordPress but have it look the way I wanted it and I was getting pretty stuck in my head and obsessive and edgy. When I was walking with Dragon, my new dog, down near the beach I just let it all go and instantly felt better.

There is a eucalyptus tree on my walk that I love and standing next to that tree with my head against the beautiful peeling bark I can bring myself back into a space of acceptance of what is, and gratitude. Sometimes I used to climb up in the tree and sit above the people walking by and they rarely noticed me. I can’t do that anymore because Dragon thinks the world revolves around her and she doesn’t want to wait for me to talk to trees.treepam

Thinking back over my day there was such a contrast between the mental intensity of learning a new computer skill, getting things wrong a zillion times and starting over, being totally in my head, and walking with Dragon and being present with trees and the ocean. I love them both. I couldn’t do a Walden Pond thing, alone in a cabin in the woods. My computer is my friend and ally and I learn so much from it. I could easily live without a cell phone but not without my computer.

I have read a lot of lovely blogs by amazing women lately and one of them said that when she started she had only one reader – her dad 😉 So I will start out with a few friends and see where this leads me.

Move in Joy,