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Come Home to Your Body

Finally my revised book, Come Home to Your Body is up on Amazon, Whoohoo! bookcover1

I am excited because I think this can help women over 50 change their perception of their bodies and their lives and start to become more comfortable with the whole idea of growing older.

Aging is really not a bad thing! I think I am happier now than I have ever been in my life. I am learning and growing in so many ways I can barely keep up with myself. I am no longer into constant drama and I am at peace with myself and the Universe.

If you blame your limitations for putting a lid on your happiness, then some of the tools in this book can give you new insight on that. One of my core beliefs is that we create our lives in every moment, with every choice, with every decision, with every thought. So the good thing is we can change on a dime and create something we like better.

And if you are still waiting for other people to love you the way you want to be loved, please STOP WAITING! It’s never going to happen. Love yourself! Then the years don’t pass by with discontent and dis-ease gathering power over you.

This is a workbook. You do one chapter a week and slowly, almost imperceptibly your life moves into a new direction, looking forward to more joy, more explorations, more gratitude.

I have revised the whole book and added 3 chapters so if any of you read it before, long ago, this is an updated version.

And now, with self-publishing it is vital to the success of a book to get good reviews on Amazon. So if you read it and like it, please give me a review so that more women will get to read it. I’d really appreciate that. And I have been warned that sometimes Amazon’s print on demand books have printing errors, so if that happens don’t give the book a bad review, just let me know and I will see you get a good copy.

You can buy a printed book or a kindle here and if you want an epub file or a pdf file you can send me an email and I will send it to you directly for $7-.

Now I think I deserve 6 weeks in the south of France, but I actually like it here in California better so I’ll just take a deserved rest at home before I start on any new projects. My inner wisdom just said, “Right, I believe that, thousands wouldn’t.”

I am a happy woman! I wish the same for every woman alive on this planet. That might take a while but it’s good to have a big goal.

Blessings,

Pam

Are Your Adrenals Happy?

I posted this on the weight vest site and then decided to post it here as well. It is titled differently because google has rules about duplicate content but there is nothing new.

It came to me in meditation this morning that my adrenals have been stressed since I was a kid. I had an incident of abandonment when I was four years old. I was rushed to hospital with kidney malfunction and kept there for 2 months. My mother was allowed to visit for an hour a week and my father didn’t come at all because that hour was at work time. And, of course, there was no explanation given at all for any of this. I thought they’d given me away because a new baby had arrived recently. The hospital was run like an army boot camp, the nurses were not allowed to touch me or play with me as I got better and it was like being in jail.

I’ve known for ages that experience was the root of much of my odd way of looking at the world and I’ve done all kinds of therapy on it. But this morning I saw clearly that if anyone had known anything about adrenals back then it could have changed my life. So I had a chat with my adrenals this morning and promised to treat them better and I thought some of you might like to do the same.269556-20418-43

Our adrenals are the two glands that sit on top of our kidneys. They secrete all kinds of hormones that we need to stay balanced, the most important being cortisol. When we are in a stressful situation our adrenals pump out cortisol, the fight or flight hormone, and it gives us a jolt of power. In the usual example of a bear coming closer, we would have the sudden energy to climb a tree, run like heck or pick up a big branch and whack him with it.

So, nowadays, our lives are stressed all the time from the crazy way we live in this culture; traffic, jobs, relationships, finances, responsibilities we wish we didn’t have but can’t get out of, etc. etc. So instead of running to a safe place and settling back into peace, we are always on minor red alert. This destroys the adrenals. I don’t know many women whose adrenals are in great shape actually.

I think adrenal malfunction is one of the first things to set you on the downhill spiral. The thyroid generally goes next, and so on and on, until you become someone you wouldn’t have recognized a few years ago.

I have known for ages what makes my adrenals happy, but haven’t always been able to give them the priority they deserve. So when they are unhappy, I get crabby, when I’m crabby, more bad stuff happens because of my negative energy field. Then I’m even less likely to settle down into a peaceful state that would make them feel happier.

Now my new mantra is – When my adrenals are happy, I’m happy! I am more the joyful, caring person I came into this body to be.

So we had a chat this morning.

I’m really coming to believe that our bodies are like a village, every part of it has it’s own patterns and it’s own agenda and we all have to get along. I apologized from my deepest heart for the abuse I’ve heaped on my adrenals all these years. I sent them huge love and appreciation for allowing me to awaken as much as I have. I told them that now I have a deep connection with Source, (God) my feeling of being alone in the world has dissipated most of the time. And I promised to keep them in my awareness when stuff comes up and deal with it in a way that doesn’t stress them out too much. For instance, if I get mad at something during my day I just release it to Source and bless the person who annoyed me. The adrenals loved that!!

So I realize that to some of you I sound like a complete nut case. But I think that our adrenal health is very connected with our bones and we can do all the right things to improve our bone density but if our adrenals are on red alert all day our whole body suffers and stops growing and starts concentrating on just maintaining the vital organs. Bones are not vital organs to the body so they get put on the back burner.

Adrenal health is also directly connected with sleep – and if we don’t sleep well everything in the body and mind goes downhill.

I won’t bore you with all the things happy adrenals will do for you. I’m sure most of you know all that already. So my main contribution here is to let you know that you can talk to your body parts (your village) and appreciate them and give them love instead of blaming them for your sad or fearful or mad day or even life.

 

Do We Have Trapped Emotions in Our Bodies?

In my constant quest for effective tools of healing, I came across The Emotion Code recently. The premise of the program is that we store trapped emotions in our bodies that affect our lives in various nefarious ways. So anything we were not equipped to deal with at the time, from the womb forward, creates a ball of energy and lodges in whatever spot in your body it chooses. It may choose a spot because there is some weakness in it already but there is no logic to it, abandonment could be stored in your big toe and anger in your elbow.

That definitely resonated with me because I’ve done almost every kind of healing work there is and yet there are still some automatic reactions embedded in my system that just drive me nuts. I catch myself saying, “Are you not over that YET for Heaven’s sake!!!!!”

So the interesting part about Dr Bradley Nelson’s system is that you can clear these old things very easily by yourself. Anyone who is interested can get a free ebook and the flow charts for doing it yourself here.  I told one lovely customer about it right after I found it and she hit paydirt with the first thing she cleared. Amazing!

I highly recommend that you give it a try if you are open to an adventure. I myself, of course, overdid it at first and got a processing reaction from trying to deal with too much too fast. But after a very emotional two weeks I am settling down again now. It heals physical pain as well as emotional blocks.

Dr Brad has many videos on youtube that show amazing healing taking place so I am going to try it out on some innocent bystanders this week. I really would love to be able to heal a twenty year old pain for someone in ten minutes by releasing two or three trapped emotions! He makes it look like a piece of cake!

Oh! and it gets better! You can release these things from your ancestors as well. There are a lot of healers talking about healing the ancestors lately. It seems to be the latest hot thing. When I first encountered it I thought, ‘Why would you worry about your ancestors, they are out dancing in their light bodies in the Solar Winds – which is what I’m going to be doing when I’m dead?’ But apparently in some portion of their reality they feel badly that they stuck a long line of descendents with their pain. Dr Brad says they often show up at the healing sessions and then disappear when it’s healed.

Another interesting thing is that, although this seems very Woowoo, it seems to attract very normal mainstream people. Perhaps because Dr Brad got it directly from prayer. So I’m intrigued. So intrigued I bought the Body Code as well which was a sizable investment but heals more stuff. Now I really hope it does work. I will keep you posted.

I also have to report that my auto-immune diet did work. Four months down the road my leaky gut is healed and I am starting to add certain things back into my diet slowly so that I can eat a larger variety of food again and gain a few pounds back. I don’t think I will ever go back to dairy, sugar, grains or processed foods. The more I looked into it the more dangerous most processed foods looked. Just read the labels and you’ll see what I mean! So, excepting for very special social occasions, I think I’ve kicked that habit. I actually like cooking my own fresh food every day; I feel like a pioneer woman.

The functional doctor who was having all the testing done was very business and money oriented so I won’t be going back to him. Food sensitivities are spreading so fast that it is the next money-making trend in health. He also wanted me to get off my thyroid meds and my bio-identicals. I tried that and I got slower and slower, my energy was slipping down the drain. The worst symptom was forgetting how to spell! That was going too far, so I started back on both thyroid meds and bio-identicals a couple of weeks ago and now I’m already perking up again. You have to take what your body needs – and I don’t consider these particular medications drugs, I consider them replacements for things my body no longer makes.

I wish you all a peaceful and joyful rest of the Summer.

Pam

Giving the 100 Day Challenge the Boot.

Ok, my intention to learn the trapeze in 100 days has driven me a bit berserk! I do love to keep my promises to myself whenever possible, so when I noticed I wasn’t actually doing the work every day I was first understanding and tolerant, then a bit slave-driving, then questioning (does that sound like your mum?).  Nothing actually got me going!

What I got with the questioning was two things. One, that the trapeze nowadays is not the trapeze I was imagining in my mind. When I was a child and saw the beautiful, sparkling lady climb up the ladder and get on the trapeze I was totally awestruck. I wanted to be like her so much I could taste it! She always had her partners and brothers to swing her back and forth and flip her in the air and catch her. It just looked like Heaven! She was never a disappointment like the ride on the elephant.

It’s different now. The circus place where I do aerial yoga every week is from the new school, the Cirque du Soleil version of circus. I admire it enormously but I don’t want to go there. For one thing, the trapeze hangs from one point so it circles around  and around and doesn’t just fly straight like a swing. For another, there are no nets so the routines on the trapeze now tend to be a little hanging gymnastics and then a pose for applause, another little gymnastic contortion and then a pose.

So I was pretending to myself that I was in this for the body strengthening but really I was in it for the thrills. I wanted to be on a giant swing. And, I noticed that I’m still a bit shy about posing (‘especially at your age!’ my mum just said). Mum’s actually dead but that doesn’t stop her from talking in my head 🙂 . That’s number one.

Number two is that I have been working on revising the book a lot and also on becoming clear on what I wanted to spend my next twenty years doing. With that and the solar flares I was feeling uncharacteristically physically tired. My mind and emotions were doing really well but my body was dragging a bit. I also asked for and got greater communication with my guides, and it is wonderful, but I think so much of my being is moving into another dimension that it added to my tiredness. My body has to catch up.UCSB Labyrinth

So over Solstice I did an amazing ritual at the UCSB Labyrinth. It is pretty  new and was totally empty. It overlooks the ocean, I could hear the waves, and I was in Heaven. The message that I got was that the gift that I came to share with people, women especially, is how to get present in their bodies as a regular way of being. Then proper nutrition and self-love and breathing and reclaiming their own power to create their lives, all fall into place for each one in her own way.

I can’t tell anyone else how to eat. I finally have become clear on what suits my body at this time of my life and I’m grateful for that. But it certainly wouldn’t suit many people. I was hung up on that for a while watching people feed their addictions and getting sicker and sicker. I really want everyone to be well and happy and doing great work in the world. But after hearing the words a zillion times that everyone is on their own path, I finally got a hit right to the heart during this ritual that everyone is doing what is right for them right now. My only job is to be the best that I can be at my own life, and if I look a lot more lively and healthy than other people my age then maybe they will sit up and take notice.

So I’m not sitting on my fingers, I’m still exercising daily, but I’ve kicked the trapeze idea to the curb. And I’m not going to do challenges any more either. I will accept my life day to day as I am creating it with extreme gratitude. Often while on the beach walking with Dragon I wonder how I got so lucky.

Love and blessings,
Pam

The Absolute Joy of Moving

I am almost finished revising my book, “Come Home to Your Body.” Whoohoo! It was a lot of work! Now I have to learn all about self-publishing. It was published by Llewellyn before but self-publishing is the fastest way to go now.

I was thinking about the new ability to create videos to go along with books. I love it! Technology is the Third dimensional version of magic.

So I was planning what videos I would make and I did a practice one for a group I belong to, and watching it made me realize how far I’ve come in accepting my own ways of moving. I am who I am, and when you move in front of a camera you show who you are in every frame. At first it was intimidating but, when I moved into more self-acceptance and self-love, I stepped into the purpose of the video, which is to encourage others to be in their bodies more.

While pondering all this two youtube videos came to mind.  PLEASE click the play buttons because you will probably love both of them and the second one will make you laugh out loud.

The first one is how I would have liked my body to move when I first watched it. It is exquisite. Up until now I would have said that if I could move like that I would be happy. Now I can look at it and admire it wholeheartedly but not want to go there. It took years of control and years of seeing from the outside to get there.

The singer and songwriter is Lee Harris and the dancer is Guido Verwer. Click the play on youtube button to learn more.

The second is a video of an amazingly alive child who beams megawatt joy in her movement. That’s who I want to be like now. She totally healed me of allowing my inner critic to control my own expression of joy. After watching her I felt free to be completely dorky and whacky. She gave me permission to be more of me. And check out the sweet little angel next to her who is doing everything right. Which do you feel called to be?

So check out the level of joy you take in your movements this week. Up the ante a bit, move up the scale. You can find a NIA dance class or dance by yourself in the living room and feel as good as this little sunbeam is feeling.

What a blessing,

Pam

Sound Healing

I went to a Sound Healing workshop last week and I was really impressed with how powerful it was. Tom Kenyon has an amazing 4 octave voice and he made sounds while playing crystal singing bowls, Tibetan bowls and drums. It was Cosmic Fun!

He would talk for a bit, he’s really funny, then move into the sound space and we would all be transported into another reality for a while. Then we’d walk beside the pond and hug the trees to make contact with the Earth and the elements, then come back inside and do it all again for three magical days.

Unfortunately he is taking the whole of 2015 off and isn’t clear whether he will do workshops again in the future.

He is a scientist by preference and is slightly embarrassed by the woo-woo side of his work. But he has seen so many miraculous occurrences from doing it that he can’t refuse to go there. He would stand on the left side of the stage and tell us all the scientific proof about what sound does in the body; making new connections in the lightfield within us, and then he would cross over to the right side to do the music, and he could not speak rationally from that side. It was hilarious.

It made me very aware of my own dichotomy. I have a lightworker side that totally believes in the beautiful future of this planet and is doing it’s best to help in that transformation. Then I have a cynical side that pops up if I’m too much in the mainstream culture that says, “Not enough people care, we can’t get this done, and how did we all get so narcissistic, so wrapped up in ourselves.”

Anyway there were 500 people there at the workshop, all committed to helping create a new reality in their own special ways, all spending time and money to make changes in their own lives. It wasn’t just a great trip, like back in the days of the Beatles, it was deep life change occurring.

I was pretty out of it for the whole week since I got back, adjusting to some huge changes in my brain. I looked like I was here; walked the dog, fixed food, got out orders, but at least 35%  of me was processing changes. When I walked on the beach and could just tune into what was happening in my body I could actually feel energy shifting.

So this is probably too woo-woo for a lot of people but it seems that I’m coming out of the closet on woo-woo. It is where I’m headed. I’ve just sent for a crystal singing bowl, the new kind with a handle that has an incredibly pure sound. I have had a Tibetan bowl since the ’70s and I don’t play it often enough – busy making a living instead of a life 😉

In the final sound session we had we were told to find within ourselves the quality that we are ready to move into, perhaps a quality we have felt lacking in or one that interests us to explore. Mine was Powerful Compassion.

As an fast moving Aries I sometimes got (notice that past tense) irritated with other people’s speed of growth. Now I call on Powerful Compassion and I really get it that we are all exactly where we need to be at every moment. And I’m also willing to move on at my own speed, probably alone much of the time, not trying to drag anyone along with me.

So what would that quality be for you? A quality you see in others perhaps and wish you had it. Or one that you see as the next step in your growth. Let me know in the comments below and we can all root for you.

Huge blessings

Pam

100 Day Challenge

I am about one third of the way through the 100 day challenge to learn the trapeze and I have to be honest, it’s not going as well as I expected 😉

I had a lesson on the first day, April 1st, April Fools Day, and found that I could not actually get up on the trapeze from the floor. You have to bring your legs up and over your head while hanging from the trapeze. My legs were not going anywhere!! Just think about it for a minute. There aren’t many, or any, actions in daily life that bring your up legs over your head from standing.

So that was a disappointment. Once up on the trapeze – with the help of others, I was doing alright but I was a bit distracted by my granddaughter having her lesson on the silks at the same time. And I realized I just wanted some space to play about, not really learning anything, so I could get comfortable with the whole thing.

Anyway I will post a mercifully short video of it so you can see what the beginning stage is. The hope being, that the ending video on July 1st will just knock your socks off with my comfort on the trapeze. Not my huge talent or expertise, but my comfort and pleasure swinging like a child.

Since then I have been doing some practicing on the bar I have at the house so I can increase my upper body strength and comfort with the learning. But, to be honest, I have not done it every day. I had some emotional upsets going on for a while and my commitment wavered.

But I have been witnessing my process and going through huge transformation at the same time. We all have actually. There are many planetary changes going on that are affecting us all on a cellular level. And they will continue for quite a while. All conscious beings are on fast forward to transformation whether they remember signing up for it or not. For me, it was no less than finally deciding whether I wanted to commit to doing my work here on Earth or stick my head back into the sand.

A week ago, in an intense transformational process, I decided I would commit to it entirely and let nothing else in my life distract me from it. I am being asked very firmly by Spirit to stop piddling around and get on with it. Now is the Time! The trapeze is not a distraction. It is a step on the journey. I want to prove in my own life that old age is not a deterrent to anything you set your heart on doing. It’s a part of my message.

So I am now back on my life’s path with determination to see it through and give what I have to give, in case someone else will find it useful. It’s a blissful feeling. I feel totally at peace.

I am also revising my book, ‘Come Home to Your Body.’ which I wrote and got published 17 years ago, before I got sick. On rereading it, I am amazed at how together I was back then and how clear I was. I lost that total clarity when I got sick and now I am reclaiming it. In the intervening years since getting well I have been very busy creating things, like the weightvest, and many other inventions, but now I am ready to reclaim the space of teaching that I had then.

Getting truly well is a long journey. That’s why I empathize so strongly with women who are feeling healthy and then they get a stupid Dexa scan and are told to live in fear their bones will collapse. I address that on my other site but now I want to address all the fears of women as they get older and they hit the negative programming in this culture.

I think I can help with that because I can see through the illusions of the programming. And I can see who is drinking the Koolaid and going down the ugly road of aging as it is laid down here in the US. I’ll be there at the Koolaid stand to say, “Wait, don’t drink that, there is another way! Gaia needs you and all your special skills and talents RIGHT NOW! You can make a difference.”

Peace and blessings always,

Pam

Changing Your Emotional State While Walking

Since we are supposed to walk for an hour a day, especially if you have a weight vest and are trying to improve bone density, what else can you do on that walk that would accomplish something really life-changing for you?

A few days ago I was totally bummed with an emotional issue that I just couldn’t get out of my mind. So I was doing the hamster-wheel thing in my head going over and over it. I was walking on the beach because that is so healing for me but even that wasn’t really working to get me out of my funk.

Then a young woman walked by having a conversation with her earbuds and she was swinging her arms vigorously and walking like a powerful person. I suddenly noticed my internal and external physiology, my posture, and I got the realization I was walking like my mother in her last years. Towards the end her mind was going and she didn’t remember that she was loved and she was afraid of dying and she walked like a scared, depressed person.

My posture wasn’t that bad but there was enough of that energy present to surprise me. I straightened up immediately and slid my shoulder blades down my spine trying to make them meet in the middle of my back. I swung my arms more vigorously and I lengthened my stride. I didn’t get on the phone because I think that is insane on the beach 😉

Immediately I felt better, in fact I burst out laughing at the change. I suddenly saw the stew I was in from a new perspective and saw clearly that the other person was not going to change so all I could change was my reaction. I could create better boundaries so this person could not affect my self-image. I am fine, he is fine, we are just not walking the same path. Why would we be? We basically all have to find the path that works for us in this life.

So then I experimented with other emotional states as I walked along to see how many states I could get into and out of by merely changing my posture. I have a total belief in using the power of body awareness to create in your life but I somehow forgot to use that when I was in the dumps. Luckily my inner wisdom created this young woman to teach me in the moment I needed it.

My soul friend, Lisa, was walking with me the very next day and said she had found a new way to know what was right for her. She just asked herself, “Would this give me more Lisa or less Lisa?”
Same thing with the walk, “Am I walking like BIG PAM or like small pam?”

So try it for yourself. Ask yourself some questions as you walk:

  • Am I walking like anyone I know?
  • Is my body expressing any specific emotion with my movement?
  • Am I fully present in this moment – or in the past or future?
  • Am I expressing all the enthusiasm I could in this moment?
  • Am I allowing myself to feel the joy in the world in this moment?
  • Am I appreciating all that I have in this moment?
  • Am I sending back love to nature, or the planet, or Gaia, or trees, or flowers, or whatever in this moment.

Instead of just getting some exercise or improving your bones, you can be improving your whole life in your hour of walking. What a blessing it is to have the hour of freedom, so many women don’t.

Please let me know in the comments if you can make this work on the treadmill. It might be a little more difficult.

I think I’m going to put this on the weight vest blog and the HealthyOver50 blog because it applies to both.

Enjoy your walking,

Pam

Self-Confidence

What does self-confidence mean to you?
Is it when you are sure you are in your right place in the world and making a difference?
When you know you are doing a great job and adding value with your work?
When all your relationships are working well and no-one is upset with you?

That third one may be your weak spot!
Why? Because you aren’t really in control of that. Other people do what they do and think what they think and may see you very differently that you see yourself. Trying to please everyone in your life is a waste of time and energy.

Our family especially can take us to the mat in a heartbeat. They often have a fixed, outdated picture of us that doesn’t relate to our present reality at all. And they often don’t want us to change, especially to move into our BIGNESS.

I noticed this past month that my self-confidence plummeted when I was not feeling my best – after eating all my suspected allergens before my allergy test.
I think that is a big snag with getting older. We may go through more times when our health is not the best and it would be a good thing to not feel emotionally down at the same time.

So I was wondering how to maintain my self-confidence on days that I felt like throwing in the towel and going back to bed. Actually I smile when I say that because I haven’t had a day in bed since I can remember 😉

Here are some ways that work for me:

My own version of the morning meditation, you’ll find the free download here -meditation. Pay special attention to the third eye chakra, where you allow yourself to see your true beauty and brilliance.

Remembering a time when I felt supremely self-confident, I knew I had just hit it out of the park, and feeling that feeling in my body, and then anchoring it in by saying something like “I am in my right place today.”

Doing something fun just for me. Walking on the beach or doing some artwork.

Doing something that I know I am successful with, it’s just easy for me.

Sending heart energy to the person who is upset with me or who I am upset with. Seeing the situation from a distance high above my head, closer to Source, and knowing that this came up to teach us both something.

Using the Tapping for Joy tool that I mention on the emotional clearing page.

Helping someone in need. Putting a smile on someone’s face.

Anything we are doing that has the word ‘self’ in front of it: self-love, self-confidence, self-esteem, self-control, is always a work in progress. Some days it will be present in our lives everywhere we turn and then the Universe brings us something new to deal with and we are back in the trenches.
We don’t get done while we are still in a body 😉
Unless we are in a cave in the Himalayas maybe.

100 day challenge check-in. I’m on my eighth day and I had difficulty with my first trapeze lesson. It was hard to get on the darn thing. To bring my legs from vertical to over my head seemed to be impossible – not a movement we practice much in this culture 😉
So I’m back to basics, strengthening the core with the exercises that I am doing here in this video. When I’m actually on the trapeze I loved it.

May you feel confident enough to move into your BIGNESS this week!

Pam    emoticon('gold')

Inspiration and Opportunity!

I’m on the countdown to a big birthday at the end of the month, my 70th. I never dreamed I would get that old! That is going to be my biggest number, I’m counting downward from here on. But I’m getting ready for a big year. In fact it’s my year to get bigger in every way!

I’ve been doing a lot of work on releasing everything that doesn’t serve me. I do NOT want to carry that stuff forward! And I’ve been finding inspiration all over the place. Here is a link to a great video from Marie Forleo interviewing Adam Braun. He wrote “The Promise of a Pencil” about his mission to build schools all over the world and how one person can make a HUGE difference and get good things rolling.

At the end of the video he and Marie give a challenge, to take one step towards your own path of helping others. So yesterday I told my existing weightvest newsletter list about this new site. I’ve been hanging back waiting to be ready 😉 and now I’m stepping up to the plate. I was trying to please everyone as usual. You all know how that holds you back and keeps you stuck, don’t you??

Then another thing that has kicked me into high gear is reading “The Charge” by Brendon Burchard. He is convinced that we are all here to share our special expertise with others in this grand new world that’s being created right now that we all got a special invitation to be part of. Exciting times!!

I’m just beginning the book but he talks about people who feel caged in their lives, that’s not me, feel comfortable, that would be me, or feel charged, that would be me after I’ve finished the book. Comfortable is very seductive, you feel something is wrong, kind of blah, but you aren’t sure what it is. Well, he hit the nail on the head for me, a lack of challenge. So I’m taking some risks, sticking my head out of my comfort zone, and exploring some big new challenges.

Often in my life I have felt weird and ashamed about my need to be off on a new trail all the time. My family has rarely appreciated that 😉 But I have realized now that it is one of my talents. I don’t throw everything out of the canoe and start fresh each time, I add the important bits of new learning to the varied life that I find exciting so I’m glad to get up in the morning.

So I’m planning a 100 day challenge, starting on my birthday, the 31st. My granddaughter and I are having an aerial circus lesson. She is pretty good already, she went to camp last Summer, but I have been doing aerial yoga to get stronger and waiting for a kick in the butt to really begin. I don’t want to perform, I just want to be strong and feel invincible again. So I think it will be more than just that, I think I will challenge myself in every arena; physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. I’ll see what ideas Spirit comes up with by then.

I will post a short video every ten days of the 100 to show you how I’m doing. I kind of hesitated to write that because I’ve started to follow so many people on the web with that kind of announcement and they have just drifted out of sight after a week or two. 100 days is over 3 months!!
I can and will do this, beautiful women!
Yep, and now I have to 🙂

If anyone wants to join me in their own 100 day challenge let me know in the comments section below and we can all root for you.

I just made a free morning meditation mp3 for you all and put it on the site here. I do it myself every morning with daily variations but this will be a basic version for connecting as a channel between Heaven and Earth.

So I will send this post out as the first newsletter but it will always be on the blog as well and I’ll put up an RSS feed button as soon as I figure out how.

Go watch that video, it will inspire your day, and tomorrow morning you can start your day with the meditation mp3.

Big hugs,
Pam